It’s crazy how now I understand what he meant by unconditional love, God’s love.  He was preparing me for the day when I would be so fed up that the only thing that would stop me from blasting off and being spiteful and angry would be unconditional love.  Love with out condition.  Even though I really want to be on this blog and talk about how wrong he did me and how much money, time and work on his behalf  that I can’t get back….I can’t get it back.  Even though my heart was heavy with disappointment in the words of so many other people in my life and in his “when people show you who they are believe them”.  No one can hide who they are all the time, eventually  people either find it in their hearts to be sincerely good, good to you or once they’ve gotten all they can from you, they move on to the next.  The reason I’m not angrily ranting or calling names is because I’ve been blessed to have someone come into my life that doesn’t really know who they are, but through them being in my life taught me alot about myself, and for that I thank him.  I was headed down a road of confusion and I was brought back to God, I was in need of self discovery and I found some books that helped me ask some important questions about my life.  I never knew I had the capacity to allow someone into my life like I did him and now I know I can.  I refuse to believe that a man can’t appreciate me revising a business plan , giving him sound advice, flying to see him whenever I can, introducing him to my boss and closest friends, buy him things, cook, help find ways to grow his business, stand up for him when I know he’s wrong.  It’s just that he has to be willing to do the same in return, I’m waiting on so many people to say I told you so and I’ll take that, but above all if you never learn then what’s the purpose?  There is a lesson to be learned and I def can say I walked away a stronger person and I know I have the capacity to give all this and more to someone very deserving some day.  I want all business owners to do better in general, if you have people grinding with you day after day behind the scenes and in front of the scenes make sure you appreciate them, those are the people that will get you to where you need to go those people come first.
In conclusion over the past week I’ve found out a lot of things that if I didn’t know how to handle the right way would have kept me down, complaining being ungrateful, but all day everyday all I’ve been able to do is smile.  I have been around some great people and I know I have young women that look up to me and moping around about a guy is not the example I want to set.  People always say God puts you through trials to prepare you for your blessings and as soon as I understood that God didn’t want him for me right now that’s when I was able to receive my blessings in abundance! I wish you nothing but the best and I’m praying for you, thanks for everything babes and I mean that from the bottom of my heart **kisses**! God Bless

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